Beginnings -- Beginning Zen Practice -- Practicing This Very Moment -- Authority -- The Bottleneck of Fear -- Practice -- The Fire of Attention -- Pushing for Enlightenment Experiences -- The Price of Practice -- The Reward of Practice -- Feelings -- A Bigger Container -- Opening Pandora's Box -- "Do Not Be Angry" -- False Fear -- No Hope -- Love -- Relationships -- The Search -- Practicing with Relationships -- Experiencing and Behavior -- Relationships Don't Work -- Relationship Is Not to Each Other -- Suffering -- True Suffering and False Suffering -- Renunciation -- It's OK -- Tragedy -- The Observing Self -- Ideals -- Running in Place -- Aspiration and Expectation -- Seeing Through the Superstructure -- Prisoners of Fear -- Great Expectations -- Boundaries -- The Razor's Edge -- New Jersey Does Not Exist -- Religion -- Enlightenment -- Choices -- From Problems to Decisions -- Turning Point -- Shut the Door -- Commitment -- Service -- Thy Will Be Done -- No Exchange -- The Parable of Mushin